Rejection and Comfort

I have been receiving a good amount of rejection as of late, from two literary agents and even a woman. While it is not ideal for me, it tells me that I need to improve. I’ve been sending query letters for years, but one constant is that I’ve been improving my craft along the way, and also improving my discipline as well where I have made writing and editing a daily routine. I actually wish that I didn’t send those early query letters because my books were quite honestly written badly. 

I never thought about it, but I read some stuff online. It said that you do not want a literary agent that does not have a taste for your writing, but also, you do not want a literary agent who already represents so many authors that the agent would have little-to-no time for you. I have always just wanted representation but did not really think about what specifically fits me, or what I would want. 

There is something about this journey in reaching this goal of becoming an author that works in opposite of what is comfortable. It is as if one needs to suffer a bit in order to progress. One needs to go against what is natural and what is comfortable, in a way, as for example, one seemingly needs to get used to rejecting. That alone is not enough though, as one also needs to predicate that rejection with a want and willingness to improve and reflect.