Expectations and Improvements

This week has been something of an improvement. I’m not sick anymore, and I feel that my shoulder has recovered enough that I can go back to Brazilian Jiu Jitsu class. As far as my goals go, I think that this setup hurt me mentally quite a bit, so it was a matter of not thinking so negatively about things. While I don’t feel particularly closer to any one goal, I have to try not to stress about it so much either. Things will happen when they happen, and all I can contribute is the amount of effort I put into achieving these goals.

I really have to temper expectations at this point. For example, I can want to be a published author and work towards it, but I cannot expect it. I think that having the expectation and not reaching that expectation is what hurts mentally, not just the failure itself. I think so much of what I can physically do to reach certain goals, but after how terrible these last two weeks have been, I’ve been thinking of how to mentally approach these goals as well.

I saw an anime movie this week, as I haven’t watched any movies in a while. It was Liz and the Blue Bird, and I had no idea coming in that it was related to an anime/light novel, Sound! Euphonium. Had I known that, I may have liked it better. However, the movie was artistically beautiful but very slow-paced. I have written a few short stories that were particularly slow-paced, but I can’t say that I’ve particularly enjoyed them. I’m the type where I just really need things to happen at nearly all times, and I tend to write that way as well.