Backwards and Forwards

I have to admit that I feel that I’m working from behind lately. I can’t say that things have been going my way, and that’s hurt my motivation and drive. I suppose that these are the times where I have to really ask myself if I want to be a professionally published author and hope to make money from this endeavor, or continue working at a cubicle.

When I get home, I work on some combination of writing, editing, or marketing my works. Television is something I’ll watch as I eat, but I’ve gotten to the point where I’m not that compelled to just lounge around and watch television until I’m done with writing stuff. I feel regret and slothful the times that I do just sit around.

 If I’m not staying productive, I feel that if I’m not moving forward, then I’m moving backwards. I’ve gotten in the habit and schedule to focus on writing as a priority. I kind of wish that I had this type of drive and focus when I was still a student, but I suppose that it’s just part of the learning experience.